An open letter for you.
Hey there, ...
Remember when we first met? it was magical. i still remember our first date. i remember it as if it was yesterday. I remember the sun locket that you wore. i remember the cardigan that you love to wear. and especially all your perfumes.
Remember when you found out about my past? You cried your eyes out. I confessed to you a month after we dated. We were still studying at that time. But somehow we managed to get past that stage. You accepted me as I am and I thanked you for that. i am glad that my lost days as the lost boys did not affect my future. i am a changed man ever since. i diligently went to classes, work hard for my grades, i actually studied and a very good student in school.There was no mention of my past anymore.
We always have the biggest fight, breakups, and make ups. I love you for that. After our graduation, we finally lived the lives that we want. Although we are not from a rich family, both of us made our parents proud. We succeed to surpass all the hardships. We dont have the luxury to study with good books because books were too expensive. We studied using notes, and second hand books. We compete for our grades. I won. =) but im glad that you also did well. i remembered both our parents cried on our graduation day. the best experience in our lives. we have been through a lot right?
And now we are at this stage of life. the biggest decision in our life....
But there is something that i need to tell you which i have just discovered recently. i am a vampire.
Now, u need to reconsider everything now. My past actually took a toll on our relationship afterall. something that i didnt expect to happen. We have gone through so much hardship, so much pain. and now this at the peak of our career.
I want you to get check ups as well. If you are a vampire as well, i will take care of you i promise that.
but if you're not, i want you to leave me. please find someone else who deserves someone as pretty, intelligent and kind like you.
dont worry, i will be alright. i know i will be. Please be strong for me. Please be strong to leave me. I will always love you baby.
Sedih giler baca surat ni beb. Banyak2 bersabar yer. Mrk yg diuji oleh Allah dlm bentuk sakit, kesusahan dan sebagainya merupakan org yg Allah sayang beb.
ReplyDeleteSaya tahu one day surat ini akan dibaca oleh dia. Once saya bagitau perkara sebenar, she will do her research straight away. She is such a good researcher. Itu yang saya suka tentang dia.
DeleteDia jenis hati mudah tersentuh. Kalau saya marah dia, terus bergenang air matanya... siapalah yang sampai hati nak tengok air mata kekasih dia jatuh kan... tapi even air mata saya pun jatuh tanpa disedari bila tulis komen ini, apatah lagi dia....
Dalam tak sedar ku kebasahan..... (insert suara zamani Slam di sini)
sedih bro baca kisah ko ni. aku paham apa yang rasa. sebab aku alami apa yang ko hadapi. be strong bro.
DeleteYou should just have spoken to that guy on the phone. He has no right to meet you face to face.
ReplyDeleteXpe. Saya harap dgn kerjasama yg saya berikan mungkin mereka tidak akan mwngganggu saya lagi. Thank u for ur support. Ada masa kta lepak k
ReplyDeleteLepak? Ok..:)
DeleteTunggu sy g sana la. Hehe lepak lepak hilang ckit stress .
ReplyDeleteIll blog tomoro abt how the interview went k? Btw, harap en fahmi sihat jugak
Saya dah nak blk msia beb. :)
ReplyDeletei mean kat malaysia la. saya bukan kat malaysia. hehe. saya kat part yang orang slalu lupa ini pun malaysia. hehe
DeleteI m really sad to read this....sedihnya tp let your gud researcher do her research n hopefully she'll get positive output.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your support Mak Wardah. yup, may Allah guide her in her research to what is inside my heart in this blog. Rasanya bila face to face nanti, saya tak pasti sekiranya saya dapat luahkan semuanya.
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