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Sebenarnya bukan lah niatku untuk lama tidak menulis. Tetapi blog aku sekarang sungguh canggih bentuknya, aku pun tak tau nak click kat mana nak buat post baru.... huhu...

Harap betul la ni, macam fesbuk je setting aku nyer blog ni, alahai,,,

But over the weekend, i watched this movie. Ok, aku bukan minat pun cerita cerita macam ni, cuma kebetulan aku naik flight aritu ke Kota Kinabalu, dan this was one of the movies yang ada, so aku tengok la dalam flight...


Pergh... menyesalnya aku sebab tengok cerita ini...sebab sedey weyh... tertusuk tulang belakang aku tengok cerita ni, tulang rusuk ku pun bergetar jua... air mata sedikit ingin menitis mencurah...

except ok, aku takde la kanker ( cancer in this Indonesia language) , but still i have a deadly virus in me. dan aku ni kiranya seorang family man jugak la. most of my life adalah untuk keluarga ku... dan sekiranya aku mati nanti, sanggup ke aku berkorban sebagaimana isteri pertama itu berkorban utk suaminya?

p/s: she denies all treatment,…

Miss you already....

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So, i watched this few days back... and it just hit me in the very spot....that small little spot that i put far far away.....


It is a must watch movie... when you're at home and all you want is a me time alone with blankets and pillows... and just be involved in the movie.....


And one part that hits that very spot every time is after Milly told Kit about her cancer,... the part where Kit look out the window.... and somehow, he knows things are going to be hard okay....



And today, i celebrated my anniversary of being diagnosed....it has been 3 years since that day, the doctor told me,i have this... but, nevertheless... lets just pray for the best. Insha Allah. hoping for many years to come.....

p/s: please dont let my kids hate me for what i am.... somehow.... this runs thru my head everyday.....




Its been a while

Betul, its been a while since the last entry.

Life has been great. my child grows up so fast and healthy.

Still thinking of whether we want another one since we just adore this one so much ( you should have seen our facebook page. full of pictures of the baby je.. haha menyampah. over betul kan. macam la anak kau anak che ta yang nak post gambar setiap hari. tapi, aku peduli apa. facebook aku. bukan facebook mak kau yang kau nak tentukan boleh ke idok letak gambar anak aku. )

But yes. overall, life has been good. there were some ups and downs.... kurang duit itu standard la kekadang..... tapi yang penting now, apa apa pun , keperluan anak dipenuhi dulu. susu dan pampers beli awal awal. takde la pening tgh bulan nak carik duit nak beli pampers anak ( sangat drama tv3 kan. hehe) , tapi takde la sampai tak makan. Cuma skarang kurang la makan tempat mewah mewah seperti Hilton, Chillies, Nandos, etc... makan la kedai kedai seperti Kedai Mamak, Kedai Abah kau, dan rumah Mak.


hehe doakan kam…

2017

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Wohooooooooo....
Ive lived another year.... At first when i was diagnosed with this, my first thought was instant death.... then only i did my maths ( only figure of speech, as to think and put two and two together) and realised that, i need to change for the better. 
And so, this World Aids Day, i celebrated my birthday again. And i would like to thank everyone around me for their continous support in my life. Especially to my wife and my child. Now, both of you are my everything. 
And thank you for the gifts and well wishes to all of my friends, and families, and especially to my wife. Caught me offguard and did not expect to get so many gifts this year, but it is still december so please keep them coming.... 

Sorry, for all the emails that i replied late. I was away so i had difficulties to log in the world wide web because im too busy enjoying the wide wide world. =p 
Im ok for now.....
My new years resolution is to be healthier, lead a healthier life and maybe, i want pursue my …

Hidup ku

Tipu kalau aku cakap aku hidup seindah indah dunia..... ada segalanya, hidup dalam dunia yang penuh pancaroba.... 
Tapi bila ku lihat muka anak aku, aku tetap ingin memberikan yang terbaik untuk nya... Kebelakangan ini banyak berita kita dengar mengenai kematian muda, sakit jantung umur 20-an, 30an, nampak sihat tapi esok nya tetiba pergi... 
Aku...?  aku nak lihat anak aku membesar... jadi seseorang yang berguna utk masa depan.. bukan seperti ku dulu, sampah masyarakat. 
tetapi masa silam membentuk diriku sekarang. aku berharap anak aku membesar dengan tidak membuat kesilapan yang aku lakukan dulu....
aku nak jadi yang terbaik utk anak aku... aku nak hidup lama...
tapi sekiranya aku pergi, biarlah aku pergi dengan rahsia ini... agar kehidupan orang yang tersayang disekelilingku tidak terjejas kerana status aku....

itu doaku setiap hari..... 
p/s: kepada pembaca, saya masih di sini ya. jangan plak fikir saya dah tiada plak.. hehe. 

kemalasan

i dont know why but hati ini berat sungguh nak makan ubat kolestrol yang di prescribe oleh ID doc...it makes me feel old.

and my diet last few months down the drain...

so persoalannya hari ini, pernah tak korang time on the way nak tidur tu, berfikir, ok, esok aku akan start diet aku yang sudah lama ketinggalan tu?

sebab thats exactly what i feel now. aku rasa macam gemuk je. perut aku dah hilang six pack nye. ( pernah ke ada six pack.. sick pack ada la. haha)

but ok semua, aku janji ngan semua, aku akan start diet esok... ( selepas aku habiskan meggi terakhir ni. sedap plak memalam makan meggi kan.... )

Kerisauan....

Risau plak.. tak lama lagi nak ambik darah lagi utk check tahap kolestrol aku... part ni la aku lemah ni...

Sebab lepas raya, badan aku ni dari macam Captain America dulu, skarang dah macam Ninja Turtle dah. mesti tahap kolestrol aku mencanak naik ni..


Mintak mintak sentiasa sihat lah ye.... nak balik rumah and start makan rumput je pasni.