tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-39987858756401309622024-03-13T06:04:52.099+08:00I must stay positive for everyoneH.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.comBlogger109125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-31794722108135266142021-06-27T10:05:00.006+08:002021-06-27T10:05:46.681+08:00Covid19 vs HIV? <div style="text-align: justify;">Almost everyday, i received a few DMs in my twitter account, @HelmiTheOne asking how am i doing, and asking for guidances and what not, some even ask me medical questions through my own personal experience. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I am touched by the people that reached out to me even if its just to ask how am i doing. I am no expert in this field. I am just living a day at a time as a positive person with a positive mindset. Hoping that one day, i can somehow change the way people perceived this virus as something negative and also hoping that one day, we will have a cure. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Maybe not many of you have known that in addition to this virus, i was covidpositive too a few months back ( talk about hard luck huh! hehe). But everything was fine. I was scared at first when my colleague whatsapp in the office whatsapp group telling everyone that he was covidpositive. I did some research as well, not many of cases reported that hiv positive person died from covid19 ( thank god). But that dont stop my worry. More questions ran through my mind like to whom did i risk the infection. what will the contact tracing be like. and will the symptoms worse because of our pre existing conditions? Do i have to tell everyone that in addition to the covid virus, theres already a virus in me? so many questions, so many worries... But gladly, ive moved beyond that. I recovered without any serious complications. Just mild fever. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">But ONE main thing that i noticed and discover is that the stigma is still here inside of us. The stigma of any infection regardless of where you got it, the self stigma, the stigma from the neighbours ( although i lived in an area where everyone are pretty much educated and above average, still when it comes to this, it seemed that fear of the virus is bigger than anything), and the irony, the stigma at my workplace. Huh. hello, i got it from an office meeting. Why would they stigmatised me for that right?( we have a covid groups in the office now, that all of us shared how we were stigmatised by our officemates for the first few weeks after recovering from covid19). But personally, i dont blamed them. I know everyone is afraid of this virus. Afraid of how easy this virus can infect anyone, and once it is in the community, the contact tracing seems neverending like a domino effect. I understand their concerns, their fears and their actions. Its just something that we have to deal with. Just that i wish they would read more? Understand more. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Another point that i would like to add is, although everyone is afraid of covid virus, its easier to say "Im covid positive" rather than "im hiv positive". Because of the mass advertisement campaign by the government, and organisations, people are becoming more and more educated in these. i even saw a Raya advertisement on covid19 and how you should not stigmatised them. Good job to the MYDIN team for a very meaningful Raya advertisement. The best line for the people who stigmatised covid patients would be " Nak dengar cakap you ke nak dengar cakap doctor?" kata makcik bawang berbilang bangsa itu. Thank you for that. Now sometimes i wish hiv would have the same campaign as well, instead of being branded as a taboo topic despite in existence for than 30years. But dont stress about the things that we cant changed. Keep on inspiring other people and lets hope one day. we are branded as just a sickness rather than the punishment from God. One day right? </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Till then. im signing off. Dont forget to follow me on twitter. @HelmiTheOne </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Thank you. Miss writing in here. Will try to write again soon. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">p/s: anak dah nak masok 3. haha</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div><br /></div>H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-71884853845345896652020-02-10T23:29:00.003+08:002020-02-10T23:29:54.024+08:00Its been years, Im back.Mr Vampire<div style="text-align: justify;">
Its been years since my last post...I miss writing in this blog, miss pouring my heart out in this blog... </div>
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Life is ok lately. Juggling between families, friends, and work, is quite tough. As i am a working professionals, i rarely had the time to even attend my annual appointment with the GP but we must find time for our health, keep up to date with the latest medicines, and maybe one day, when walking into the clinic, we will be given the update that there is a cure for this virus after all right? ( keep on praying for miracles, but until then, keep on taking our meds as usual). </div>
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Few days back, i was chatting and having my conversations with my beloved mother, and somehow the topic escalate to the latest worries in the world, #coronavirus. My mum is the typical malay lady, in her 70s who read too much facebook articles, and will just forward almost anything in her whatsapp group. So, she is quite "up to date" , not. </div>
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" The situation is so scary lately. I read somewhere that maybe this virus is like AIDS, you know, when you cant touch them, or even be near them... Oh, whatever happens in this world is so worrying lately.... "</div>
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i mean, well, as much as i really really want to tell her off, she is still a very old lady in her 70s, and if im lucky, i will still have ten more good years with her. So, maybe i should not be worried about what she think and just brush it off? Of course, i am one of those people that doesnt have the benefit of telling my parents that i have #hiv and i plan to keep it from them until the day that they or i die...</div>
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p/s: its snowing today... cheers...xxH.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-1975972145842427552018-04-07T13:39:00.002+08:002018-04-07T13:39:42.221+08:00Moving to another country...Since being diagnosed ive never stop travelling and i can vouch that other plhiv as well. But travelling is a different thing. Preparing to move to another country is another thing. <div>
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p/s: lawan tetap lawan. the virus i mean. =p</div>
H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-76685308809958970362017-11-17T10:06:00.002+08:002017-11-17T10:06:52.178+08:00Moving up the ladder, going forward...As we go on, pursuing our very own life, we must stop to ponder at which stage will we stop?<br />
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Thats when i realised, that everyone have this amazing intuition, ( bukan naluri keperempuanan macam gf dari neraka itu ye: by the way, Sakinah, memang terbaik cerita tu.. lakonan memang membuatkan aku nak pijak pijak je GF macam tu....) , that we can detect or sense that our friends are indeed having problems. etc. </div>
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If they did asked when i am at my lowest low, i wouldve broke down and maybe tell them... </div>
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But, now, im strong and ever so positive, i think ill just keep it to myself. I dont need their sympathy, but i do need their friendship. Always. </div>
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But a good support system is important. I thank my wife for always with me when i went to collect my meds etc... ( padahal sebab nak gi dating pastuh. haha) </div>
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If you are in an open status, good for you. But if you decide to keep it a secret, also, good for you. Whatever works for you, it is your status. I dont see any people with diabetes or kurap, pergi bagitau satu dunia kan? Because, in the end, its your secret to keep. </div>
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H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-49057768682442171662017-09-14T11:03:00.001+08:002017-10-05T13:31:13.068+08:00A very sad day....A very sad day for us today, when a<span style="background-color: white;">t least 25 people have died after a fire broke out at a religious (tahfiz) school in Jalan Datuk Keramat. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">Which goes back to us all. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">Semua ini adalah anak yang terpilih, anak tahfiz. betapa sedihnya ibu bapa mereka apabila anak anak terkorban dalam kebakaran ini. tetapi ini adalah ketentuan yang Maha Esa. </span><br />
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H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-12269892083188598272017-09-12T14:33:00.000+08:002017-09-12T14:33:03.532+08:00Masa mencemburui kitaSesungguhnya masa mencemburui kita.<br />
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Aku seringkali terbangun malam, atau tak bleh tido malam....<br />
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Kalau tak leh tido, atau terbangun, aku akan tengok muka anak aku dan isteri aku,<br />
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Cukupkah bekalan aku untuk diorang survive nanti?<br />
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Dapat ke tak semua simpanan dan aku nyer insurance ( which is still a questionable action) digunakan untuk diorang?<br />
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Aku harap je la. buat masa ni, aku habiskan berbakti je kepada kedua orang tua dan untuk anak bini aku.<br />
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Emosi plak aku petang petang ni. sebab tengah tunggu orang datang untuk appointment sebenarnya... lambat plak. ni aku sakit hati ni... haha<br />
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<br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">Sebenarnya bukan lah niatku untuk lama tidak menulis. Tetapi blog aku sekarang sungguh canggih bentuknya, aku pun tak tau nak click kat mana nak buat post baru.... huhu... </span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">Harap betul la ni, macam fesbuk je setting aku nyer blog ni, alahai,,, </span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">But over the weekend, i watched this movie. Ok, aku bukan minat pun cerita cerita macam ni, cuma kebetulan aku naik flight aritu ke Kota Kinabalu, dan this was one of the movies yang ada, so aku tengok la dalam flight...</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">Pergh... menyesalnya aku sebab tengok cerita ini...sebab sedey weyh... tertusuk tulang belakang aku tengok cerita ni, tulang rusuk ku pun bergetar jua... air mata sedikit ingin menitis mencurah...</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">except ok, aku takde la kanker ( cancer in this Indonesia language) , but still i have a deadly virus in me. dan aku ni kiranya seorang family man jugak la. most of my life adalah untuk keluarga ku... dan sekiranya aku mati nanti, sanggup ke aku berkorban sebagaimana isteri pertama itu berkorban utk suaminya?</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">p/s: she denies all treatment, because she dont want to leave with the memory of having to be hospitalized. she want to treasure all whats left and bergembira dan kekal dengan memori terakhir sebegitu...</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">cuma part sembahyang keluarga tu, siapa tak sebak, die bukan anak wan maimunah lah weyh.... ( ok, i know korang bukan anak wan maimunah), tapi u get the point. memang a good story to watch... menyesal plak tengok cerita sedih sangat macam ni.. touchdown je, terus call my wife and told her that i love her. ( sweet kan abang? ) hahaha...</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87); font-family: Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">ok. go watch this movie. </span>H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-85283615826384904412017-02-28T09:53:00.002+08:002017-02-28T09:54:40.289+08:00Miss you already....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-31957257569331690462017-02-21T13:19:00.000+08:002017-02-21T13:19:29.090+08:00Its been a whileBetul, its been a while since the last entry.<br />
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Life has been great. my child grows up so fast and healthy.<br />
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Still thinking of whether we want another one since we just adore this one so much ( you should have seen our facebook page. full of pictures of the baby je.. haha menyampah. over betul kan. macam la anak kau anak che ta yang nak post gambar setiap hari. tapi, aku peduli apa. facebook aku. bukan facebook mak kau yang kau nak tentukan boleh ke idok letak gambar anak aku. )<br />
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But yes. overall, life has been good. there were some ups and downs.... kurang duit itu standard la kekadang..... tapi yang penting now, apa apa pun , keperluan anak dipenuhi dulu. susu dan pampers beli awal awal. takde la pening tgh bulan nak carik duit nak beli pampers anak ( sangat drama tv3 kan. hehe) , tapi takde la sampai tak makan. Cuma skarang kurang la makan tempat mewah mewah seperti Hilton, Chillies, Nandos, etc... makan la kedai kedai seperti Kedai Mamak, Kedai Abah kau, dan rumah Mak.<br />
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hehe doakan kami dimurahkan rezeki yer. thanks.H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-67508110813560053012016-12-22T14:31:00.003+08:002016-12-22T14:31:45.168+08:002017<div style="text-align: justify;">
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And thank you for the gifts and well wishes to all of my friends, and families, and especially to my wife. Caught me offguard and did not expect to get so many gifts this year, but it is still december so please keep them coming.... </div>
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H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-73888016560351661782016-10-31T22:07:00.000+08:002016-10-31T22:07:21.872+08:00Hidup kuTipu kalau aku cakap aku hidup seindah indah dunia..... ada segalanya, hidup dalam dunia yang penuh pancaroba.... <div>
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H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-44524616260078376932016-08-27T22:18:00.002+08:002016-08-27T22:18:17.350+08:00kemalasani dont know why but hati ini berat sungguh nak makan ubat kolestrol yang di prescribe oleh ID doc...it makes me feel old.<br />
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<br />H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-39466912029566425522016-07-13T09:28:00.000+08:002016-07-13T09:35:13.633+08:00Selamat Hari Raya dari Saya SekeluargaLama betul tidak bersiaran di dalam medium ini. Mesti ramai peminat yang rindu dan ternantikan post terbaru saya...<br />
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H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-39998640723831515022016-06-01T00:38:00.000+08:002016-06-01T00:38:21.327+08:00Emotional weekWriting always makes me emotional. be it just about life or about my experience.<br />
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I always hope that my writing helped people and somewhere out there some will learn from my mistakes.<br />
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I learned from my mistakes the hardway, but i hope my fans ( hehe....) learned it before its too late.<br />
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But one thing for sure, a strong support system is very important. And inshaallah, with my support system, i can succeed in this life. Please pray for me.<br />
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Amin.H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-52090026215254476982016-05-16T15:47:00.001+08:002016-05-16T15:47:14.353+08:00Update review May 2016 Rajin pulak aku update blog hari ini kan? yer lah. dah berjanji dengan peminat seantero asia dan amerika utara.<br />
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Hari ini, aku tiba di Klinik ID yang penuh dengan umat manusia... semua terpegun dengan kekacakan captain America yang masuk untuk apt review dengan doctor ID.<br />
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Doctor aku hari ini cool orang nya. Doctor baru kot. Perempuan..<br />
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All in all, semua result berkaitan dengan aku nye superpower ( virus) ok je. Still undetectable dengan CD4 6ratus lebih. tak ingat plak exact figure dia....<br />
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Captain America : " Alhamdulillah doc. Camne plak dengan result cholestrol i? takde check eh?"<br />
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Ya. saya telah kembali....<br />
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A few months back, saya menyuarakan mengenai niat hati ingin ke luar negera atas tujuan tertentu... Alhamdulillah, segala urusan telah dipermudahkan...<br />
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Beberapa perkara perlu dikenal pasti apabila ingin keluarnegara...<br />
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1) Pastikan nawaitu tu betul... sesungguhnya tidak pernah plak aku berniat nak keluarnegara untuk menjadi pengganas ke ape. hehe.. so ni settle. rasanya semua pembaca semua baik baik belaka kan...<br />
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2) Pastikan bekalan ubat yang mencukupi... dan sekarang dengan pertambahan security check and customs check, pastikan anda mempersiapkan siap siap la surat daripada doctor mengatakan anda adalah pesakitnya dan memerlukan ubat ubat tersebut ( jangan risau, sekiranya anda pergi ke doctor yang betul, iaitu doctor ID anda, pasti nya dia tahu etika seorang doctor iaitu, butiran ubatan sahaja yang perlu dinyatakan, butiran penyakit tidak perlu )<br />
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3) pastikan berapa jam perjalanan kapal terbang/keretapi/basikal/bas tersebut. dan siap siap la bawak satu bekalan ubat dalam pocket. untuk makan masa dalam perjalanan. Untuk ini, aku selalunya tidak akan tukar waktu di jam tangan kerana itu adalah petunjuk kepada masa aku makan ubat. dengan cara itu tidak perlu lah kita menolak atau menambah masa setiap kali nak tahu pukul berapa nak makan ubat ( sekiranya bergerak ke beberapa negara/ zon masa, jam pun bertukar kan. maintain je la jam tangan ko dengan jam malaysia ke, atau adakan satu jam utk waktu malaysia supaya tidak keliru )<br />
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4) Pastikan kita jangan la pergi ke tempat mudah mendapat virus. seperti di Seksyen 8 Shah Alam tu, kawasan bahaya utk orang kurang imun seperti kita. ( maaf ye orang shah alam, saja je buat lawak, lagipun, shah alam tu bukan lah luar negara pun. ) maksud aku, jangan la pergi ke kawasan yang ramai orang berpeluh ke, sebab kita ni memang senang mendapat virus especially yang airborne tu. so boleh la consider utk menggunakan mask muka. bukan masker utk memastikan keanjalan kulit tu, tetapi mask utk menutup hidung dan mulut .<br />
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5) Duit secukupnya.. especially lepas baca ni, aku akan expect ko akan belikan la buah tangan utk aku sebab ko ingat ilmu ini free ke? ok. lawak hambar sesangat tengah malam ni kan.....<br />
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6) Pastikan nombor nombor penting ada bersama anda. Dan ubatan di letakkan di dalam botolnya sendiri dan peluang utk beg hilang tu tiada. ada dugaan jugak jemaah bila beg mereka hilang, so, pastikan kita ada nombor beberapa individu atau agensi yang boleh membantu kita dapatkan stok ubat kalau di luar negara nanti/ Atau paling senang, bawak je ubat sentiasa ngan kita k?<br />
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7) Kamera * ambik gambar, post kat facebook. buktikan kita pun boleh hidup normal dan gembira.<br />
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Terima kasih kerana membaca post merepek aku ni. miahahahahahha... gelak jahat. aku rindu ke luar negara.<br />
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p/s: jom wahai isteriku. kita pergi tempat sejuk plak... teringin nak main snow.....<br />
kepada semua, jangan lupa doakan kami...<br />
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Hidup Normal dan Gembira =)H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-71183424892088172402016-02-01T08:00:00.000+08:002016-02-01T08:00:25.083+08:00LatelyLately i have been busy with life....<br />
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But, not everything must be posted here, because not everyone wants to read my sweet sweet life. Not everyone will react the same way others react. Because some people envy of what you have. note that, not all of my life is as sweet. but i try my best to enjoy the little things in life. because, the Almighty is very fair....<br />
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Kebelakangan ini aku amat sibuk menjalani kehidupanku....<br />
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Tapi, tidak semuanya mesti dipost di sini.. kerana aku dapati, tidak semua yang ingin membaca kisah hidup aku yang indah indah. Tidak semua akan memberi tindakbalas( eh:? ingat ujikaji kimia ke) seperti mana orang lain bertindakbalas. Sebab sesetengah orang akan cemburu atas apa yang kita ada..P/S: Tidak semua hidupku indah,. tetapi aku cuba yang terbaik untuk menghargai segala kurniaan yang diberikkanNya. kerana Allah maha Adil. inshaallah.<br />
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P/S: aku baik baik je. menjalani kehidupan seperti manusia biasa. doakan aku ya kengkawan. =)H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-81812394463413810212016-01-19T07:49:00.000+08:002016-01-19T07:49:25.691+08:00The true story of Susan & Dan HartmanWhen Susan Hartmann got married, she and her husband knew that they
had to be careful. Given that she’s HIV-negative and he’s HIV-<br />positive, they had to be vigilant about protected sex. But later, they decided they wanted to start a family.<br />
After
hearing about high-tech assisted reproduction techniques that could
help them conceive safely, they sought advice from the perinatal HIV
clinic at the University of California at San Francisco. But the doctors
presented an option the couple hadn’t considered: They could do it the
old-fashioned way, by having unprotected sex.<br />
Hartmann was floored by the suggestion. “It was counter to decades of public health messaging,” she said.<br />
She
and her husband, Dan, looked at the research. Numerous studies
supported the idea that her risk of infection was extremely low because
his viral load was undetectable and they would be having unprotected sex
only a few times, when she was ovulating.<br />
The couple decided to
go for it, and the happy result was a little girl they named Ryan. Both
mother and daughter are HIV-negative.<br />
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More than 1.1 million Americans — about three-fourths of them men — are infected with HIV, and as they are <a href="http://www.washingtonpost.com/national/health-science/everythings-different-almost-since-last-international-aids-conference-in-us/2012/07/21/gJQA5pXr0W_story.html">living longer lives</a> thanks to <a href="http://www.washingtonpost.com/national/health-science/for-aids-patients-learning-to-traverse-the-cascade-of-care-leads-to-long-term-health/2012/07/26/gJQAdbDfBX_story.html">advances in anti-retroviral therapy</a>, a growing number have expressed the desire to start a family.<br />
Couples
in which one or both partners are HIV-positive have been using
adoption, surrogacy or donor eggs or sperm for years, but those avenues
are often incredibly expensive. Today, some doctors are endorsing
intercourse without a condom as another option. It allows couples to
have biological children, and it’s free. Medical professionals are
backed by a new understanding about the mechanisms of HIV transmission
and the development of an effective once-a-day pill taken by the
HIV-negative partner that can reduce the risk of infection.<br />
And a
baby born to an HIV-positive mother, regardless of the father’s status,
now has a less than 1 percent chance of getting the virus, with proper
treatment.<br />
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“We
have gone from a story of risk reduction to one of possibility,” said
Shannon Weber, coordinator for the Bay Area Perinatal AIDS Center in San
Francisco, which in 2012 started a program to help HIV-positive men
with HIV-negative female partners — the most complicated situation to
deal with from a medical standpoint — have children.<br />
“We have
done such a disservice to them over the years,” Weber said. “They have
had very little information about safe conception, and for many of them
this is the first time they were asked whether or not they wanted to
have a family.”<br />
New studies have consistently shown that
intercourse without a condom with someone who is HIV-positive may not be
as risky as people once thought if the infected person’s viral load is
low and the person takes medication regularly, according to Mark V.
Sauer, vice chair of the obstetrics and gynecology department at the
Columbia University Medical Center. A study of 750 mixed-status
heterosexual and gay couples presented this year at a conference in
Boston found no cases of linked HIV transmission when the positive
partner was on anti-retroviral therapy.<br />
Sauer said his practice
plans to begin counseling mixed-status couples about the reproductive
option later this year and will require the HIV-negative mother to take
an anti-viral medication approved by the Food and Drug Administration in
2012 for lowering the risk of infection even further in such cases.<br />
“Like
all innovative therapies, there’s not a lot of data yet, but everything
we do know points to this being a reasonable risk,” he said.<br />
Erika
Aaron, an assistant professor at Drexel University’s College of
Medicine, has helped five HIV-negative women with HIV-positive partners
get pregnant via intercourse while on anti-retrovirals over the past
year and a half. None have become infected with HIV. She said that when
she started talking about this option, “it was hard to get the words out
of my mouth” because she had been telling people the opposite for so
many years.<br />
But,
Aaron said, “now that we know ways we can minimize transmission by ways
other than using condoms, it’s important that we let them know this is
an option.”<br />
The view isn’t universally accepted.<br />
Some
primary-care physicians say they are uncomfortable with the approach
because the risk of transmission, however small, still exists and it is
their responsibility to do no harm. And some of those in the public
health arena, especially those who have been fighting the epidemic for
decades, say they worry that the research could be used to justify
reckless behavior that could undo years of safe-sex advocacy.<br />
Michael
Weinstein, president of the Los-Angeles based AIDS Healthcare
Foundation, said that the research about unprotected sex as a means of
conception is promising but that the practice cannot be guaranteed to
work in the real world. He said that HIV viral loads fluctuate and that
even the most well-intentioned would-be mothers and fathers could forget
to take their medication. He said that if there happens to be a spike
in a man’s viral load while a couple is trying to conceive, the risk to
the woman would increase dramatically.<br />
“People are going to make
whatever decision about risk with their doctors,” Weinstein said. “But
as a public health person, I cannot advocate this.”<br />
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Mixed
HIV status, or serodiscordant, couples looking to start a family have a
menu of options in addition to the traditional routes of adoption,
surrogates, and egg or sperm donors.<br />
If it is the woman who is
HIV-positive, artificial insemination with a syringe is practical, cheap
and effective, but things are more complicated if it is the man who is
HIV-positive.<br />
Using “washed” sperm that is treated to reduce or
eliminate infectious material in the semen being transferred to a woman
is one option. Although sperm washing is a popular method in other
countries, the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention has
recommended against the practice, saying it does not always eliminate
the virus. As a result, advocates say, few clinics offer this service —
making it a more expensive and time-consuming option than it might
otherwise be.<br />
For
couples considering intercourse, doctors are conflicted over whether
using drugs such as Truvada for pre-exposure prophylaxis, or PrEP, can
provide another layer of protection for the mother.<br />
The drug, in
the form of a blue pill, is supposed to be taken once a day for 365 days
and costs $12,000 to $16,000 a year, most of which is covered by
insurance.<br />
There have been no studies on how Truvada or other
anti-retrovirals should be given to HIV-negative women seeking to
conceive with their HIV-positive partners. Some doctors prescribe it for
use only on days when the couple has intercourse, while others tell
patients to take it continuously for months or even years while they are
trying to conceive.<br />
Others say the potential side effects and
risks may not be worth it for those whose partners have their viral
loads under control, so they don’t prescribe it. Truvada is known to
cause nausea and vomiting and has been linked to kidney issues. Some
epidemiologists have expressed concern about the theoretical possibility
that if the drug is used irregularly and widely it could lead to
creation of a superstrain of Truvada-resistant virus.<br />
Caroline
Watson, a 25-year-old from San Francisco who is HIV-negative and whose
husband, Deon, 33, is HIV-positive, conceived a child through
intercourse, but she declined to take Truvada or another anti-retroviral
because of the possible risks. Neither she nor her daughter, Valerie,
who celebrated her first birthday in February, were infected.<br />
“Some of my friends told me I was crazy, that I was being stupid,” Watson said. “But the science supports what I did.”<br />
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Living their lives</div>
The
Hartmanns went to high school together in Annapolis and were good
friends. Dan, who suffers from hemophilia, a disorder in which the blood
does not clot properly, had been infected with HIV through a
transfusion when he was 12. Susan knew about his HIV status, but it did
not make a difference to her then or when they reconnected years later
and fell in love.<br />
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It
became an issue only when they decided to start a family, a year after
they were married and living in Northern California. She was the program
manager for the University of California at Berkeley’s Center for
Cities and Schools, and he was a graphic artist working for the state.<br />
The
use of anti-retrovirals on HIV-negative women was not so common, and
Susan said she decided not to take them. She became pregnant within two
months.<br />
“Had I rolled the dice and gotten HIV, it was a risk I
was willing to take. We did what we could to minimize that outcome, but
as an HIV-negative partner, there is always a level of risk one takes,”
she said.<br />
The Hartmanns, both 39, live in Odenton, Md., with
their daughter, who is 4. They say they are thinking about having
another child. If they do, they will probably go the same route.<br />
“We
did a lot of soul-searching about how do we live lives that we want to
live,” Hartmann said. “My husband is not counting the days until he
dies. He is expecting a long life, and we want a family.”H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-35263861355005125392015-12-15T14:24:00.002+08:002015-12-15T14:24:58.830+08:00My Sisters Keeper<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: rgba(185, 185, 185, 0.0980392); color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18.2px;">So yesterday was an off day for me. Was down with a fever, so my wife and i decided to stay in and watch movies all day long. and this particular movie was on the tv </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(185, 185, 185, 0.0980392); color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18.2px;">and it got me and my wife glued to our sofa. It is an adaptation from Jodi Picoult novel of the same name. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(185, 185, 185, 0.0980392); color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18.2px;">"In Los Angeles, the eleven year old Anna Fitzgerald seeks the successful lawyer Campbell Alexander trying to hire him to earn medical emancipation from her mother Sara that wants Anna to donate her kidney to her sister. She tells the lawyer the story of her family after the discovery that her older sister Kate has had leukemia; how she was conceived by in vitro fertilization to become a donor; and the medical procedures she has been submitted since she was five years old to donate to her sister. Campbell accepts to work pro bono and the obsessed Sara decides to go to court to force Anna to help her sister" </span></div>
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And to the point that when her daughter said that she is not beautiful because chemo make her hairs fall, Sara shaved her own head.</div>
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But. where do we draw the limit? Kate herself dont want to see her family falls apart just because of her sickness. and that she just wants to stop fighting and made an arrangement with her little sister to bring an action against her own mother for a medical emancipation. </div>
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A must watch. and a must read. =)<br />
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H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-2632998628934551212015-12-07T08:36:00.002+08:002015-12-07T08:36:38.097+08:00Tunku JalilJujur aku katakan, kalau orang bercakap mengenai kerabat johor, aku tak ambil kisah. Kerana bagiku, ia tiada kaitan dengan aku. Mereka mewah ke. birthday dapat Jet ke, bas sekolah ke ( ada ke bapak nak bagi anak hadiah bas sekolah? hehe, ok bas biasa ke), tak kacau periuk nasik aku pun, oleh itu aku kurang ambil enteng mengenai perkara ini. banyak lagi hal duniawi yang perlu ku fikirkan.<br />
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Tetapi, apabila melihat gambar gambar dari pengebumian TJ semalam, aku dan isteri sedikit terkesan melihat betapa kasih seorang ayah kepada anak nya...<br />
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Mari kita lihat beberapa gambar yang kuat yang dapat menunjukkan erti kasih seorang ayah...<br />
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Dan untuk itu, hamba dedikasikan satu entry ini untuk Tengku Jalil, dan hamba sarungkan songkok untuk berkabung,<br />
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<br />H.Abuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08870144378794004011noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3998785875640130962.post-83095295340125311752015-12-03T12:49:00.001+08:002015-12-03T12:49:12.406+08:00Salam Terakhir...<div class="MsoNormal">
Ok. aku agak lambat kalau bab bab lagu ini, terutama sekali lagu lagu terkini. sebabnya aku ini orang lama. kalau ko tanya aku lagu rock kapak, pastinya aku dapat mengingatinya kerana itu zaman aku. </div>
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Cuma, sekarang,aku baru mendengar dan mengamati lirik lagu ini. Like im gonna lose you by megan trainor dan John Legend. Ini kerana suara aku, walaupun suka lagu rock kapak, suara aku ada iras iras seperti John Legend sikit. dalam 0.001peratus persamaan. haha. </div>
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Tapi bila amati lirik lagu ini, ia begitu menyentuh perasaan. Yang pastinya, kita haruslah menghargai setiap saat kita ada bersama dan to treasure each moment like it is going to be your last. </div>
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So, dengan ini, saya mempersembahkan lirik lagu ini utk semua. </div>
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p/s: imagine la korang ye aku nyanyi lagu ini dengan meghan trainor ye. nasib baik meghan trainor ni gemuk sikit, so takde la isteri aku jeles sangat time aku duet ngan meghan. kalau megan fox, aku rasa, mesti pembikinan single terbaru ini sedikit terjejas. terima kasih. </div>
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I found myself dreaming<o:p></o:p></div>
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That every broken heart knows we were walking on moonlight<o:p></o:p></div>
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Split second and you disappeared and then I was all alone<o:p></o:p></div>
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No, we're not promised tomorrow<o:p></o:p></div>
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So I'm gonna love you<o:p></o:p></div>
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Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing<o:p></o:p></div>
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I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when<o:p></o:p></div>
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When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you<o:p></o:p></div>
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Like I'm gonna lose you<o:p></o:p></div>
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I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you<o:p></o:p></div>
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[John Legend:]<o:p></o:p></div>
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In the blink of an eye<o:p></o:p></div>
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Just a whisper of smoke<o:p></o:p></div>
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Any chance that I get<o:p></o:p></div>
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I'll make the most of the minutes and love with no regrets<o:p></o:p></div>
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Let's take our time<o:p></o:p></div>
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Before it's all gone<o:p></o:p></div>
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[Both:]<o:p></o:p></div>
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Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing<o:p></o:p></div>
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When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you<o:p></o:p></div>
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I'm gonna love you<o:p></o:p></div>
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Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing<o:p></o:p></div>
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I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when<o:p></o:p></div>
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When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you<o:p></o:p></div>
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